+++ 06.07.04

i went to roskilde festival. i regret it, and i don't. the more i think about it, the more negative i feel. i'm sick and it pisses me off. but i can't have it all, if anything at all. oh. my. god. i need to take a shower. i have been sweating a lot since i got back, but, you know, still freezing. you give me fever, you see. you see. no wait, you don't.

and i listen to depressing songs and hateful//bitter songs, which is so bad. because i might as well just be happy. i have nothing but myself to lose, and i lost me years ago.

i need a cigarette badly. tough luck my throat feels like it's being cut up.